“Doubt is a pain too lonely to know that faith is his twin brother.” – Khalil Gibran
Doubt can plague us, follow us, haunt us, cause us sleepless nights and many distracted hours. It creeps into the corners of our minds where certainty once stood shining brightly. If left unchecked, doubt will immobilize our actions and freeze our creative flow. Where does it come from and how can we benefit from doubt? Is Doubt a friend or a foe?
Overall Doubt can be a sign from our Emotional Guidance System that we need more information. We are unsure and unconvinced of the reality before us. In our fluid reality doubt can be seen as a flag signaling that we are going in the right direction and a few tweaks will keep on the right path, or that we are about to be thrown off the road into the bushes all together.
In an ongoing relationship for instance, doubt can let us know in the early subtle stages that the energy in relationship is shifting. We may be picking up on faint outward signs that we and our partner are not in sync. When we doubt a partner’s sincerity it’s a sign to look deeper. It’s also a sign to slow down because the road ahead is not what it seems. Addressing our doubts with a partner can also send us down roads of greater intimacy. They always signal that further information is available to us if we choose to look.
“Doubt is useful, it keeps faith a living thing. After all, you cannot know the strength of your faith until it has been tested.” – David Magee
There is another form of Doubt, the less kind form. The kind that feels like a dark, slouching presence residing in the corner of our room at night. The kind that feels like the overflow of the emotional closet, a place where all our fears and insecurities are “safely” tucked away. You know the closet, the tightly locked up space within us that allows us to function… as long as we don’t peak inside.
This kind of Doubt erodes our confidence, stops us cold if we try something new, dream too big, or aim too high. It erodes the bonds of our most personal relationships and stands in judgment of even our most innate goodness. This is not your friend or your Inner Guidance. Its nature is elusive. Its roots hard to follow. How do we tame such a beast we cannot see, or taste, or touch?
This Doubt is a red Flag, a big ole Waving in your face red Flag. Its roots lie in our worthiness. Our worthiness is our ability to realize the Divine Nature of our Being, our connection to Source Eternal, to the All that Is, God/dess. Doubt does not create this separation, but it is an indication that we are separating ourselves from Divine Life force. Accepting the Divinity of our Nature, that we are here for a purpose, a reason, that our presence is not a mistake or an accident of fate is the first step to accepting that there are bigger forces at play in our lives and that our lives matter.
Acceptance of the Divine within is the beginning to taming the doubts that chase you through your days and nights. It is the first step to allowing Healing, Love, and Forgiveness, both for self and for others, to take hold. It will bring the Peace that alludes you and the surety of your place in the world, no matter the turbulence of the waves around you. You are loved. You are Worthy. You do Belong Here.